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Reflections on a Mountain Retreat
A few days away from my typical routine
Riding in the car on winding roads through fall foliage: I couldn’t have asked for anything better. The views alone are enough to bring a sort of aching in my heart.
The trip has been good, although today’s poor weather kept us from doing much.
I’ve had some time to think and react. I had a friend unsubscribe from my newsletter, so I guess it’s time to let go of that friendship as well. Feeling upset by that, I snapped at Michael. I realized how much my mood can change from even the smallest things.
We’ve been spending a lot of time together in the same room, although we aren’t always doing things together. Michael’s been gaming while I’ve been doing ten other things.
I think I actually prefer having a life packed with different responsibilities. It gives me a sense of productivity and self-worth. Without the structure of work and class, I feel useless/worthless again.
I don’t know if it’s because I’ve bought into the whole productivity and meritocracy myth or what, but I don’t feel like I should be relaxing on a vacation. My…
