I need to stop comparing myself to others.
It’s eating me up inside
Every few months, Duke sends me an alumni magazine. In it are all the changemaker alumni who, in comparison, make me feel terrible about what I’m doing.
It makes me wonder,
They’re off trying to battle problems like poverty or going into healthcare. Some have prestigious jobs or have won amazing awards. What am I doing with my own life?
The Olympics makes me feel small, too, with all the talented youth performing feats I can’t help but marvel at.
I think to myself,
Look at all those people peaking. I peaked in high school and now everything’s just been downhill from there.
One of the guys I used to date said that you choose when you peak. That might be true, but there are plenty of things that can happen outside of your choosing. Decisions are often made by other people, with consequences that affect you. Opportunities come open every now and then, but whether you’re successful in securing something for yourself can make a huge difference.
I had to quit Instagram because all the pictures of clear turquoise water in Hawaii with white sand beaches and perfectly crafted cocktails all were too alluring.
