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A little soul-baring
When my soul lies naked on the screen
It’s been a while since I wrote anything. About two months. I’ve felt blocked in more ways than one. Struggling to put words to feelings.
After the whirlwind Asia trip, I’ve come home and felt stuck. Lost. Treading water.
I know this is where home is, but I yearn to see and be more.
I feel like I have some healing to do this summer.
My relationship with my sibling is falling apart. I figured out that what I thought was a healthy, strong romantic relationship is actually codependent and has a host of communication issues.
So I don’t feel great right now. Objectively speaking, I’m not going hungry or worried about a place to rest or water/electricity. Other people in the world unfortunately have to worry about that. I know I’m privileged, but at the same time, my mental health is shot.
Complaints don’t go anywhere. There needs to be a significant change in how I see and live in this world. I’ve been sleeping through day after day without accomplishing much. I feel like I’m drifting away again, tumbling day in and day out of the same old routine. Wake up, go to work, sleep. Spend time with family and friends when the time allows. And somehow I still feel unsatisfied and unfulfilled.
